This is Sunday – home with this silly back.

It is a good day for me to get caught up on so many things that have gone by the wayside. I read the devotional of Dr. Criswell’s this morning and want to pass it on for this Sunday morning.

phesians 2:11-17
That at that time ye were without Christ, being aliens from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers from the covenants of promise, having no hope, and without God in the world: But now in Christ Jesus ye who sometimes were far off are made nigh by the blood of Christ (2:12-13).
Without Hope
   If you have read Dante’s Divine Comedy, you have seen hell described as having a giant door that leads down into the pit and into the abyss. Above this door are inscribed these words: “Despair of hope all ye who enter here.” That is a description of all who are outside the Lord. They are without hope. Our lives without God are like a shipwrecked mariner thirsting to death in a sea of brine, looking up to a burning sun, looking down to the bottomless pit, and looking around to barren decay. Our lives are like that without Christ; we are without hope.
   Sometimes I think of life as a race with death on a great track. When one is young, the grim skeleton monster of death seems to be far behind. But as the days go on and the race continues, he approaches closer and closer until finally, if one looks over his shoulder, he can see him breathing down his neck. I do not need to speculate who wins. Death always wins, like a stag-hound that drags down the deer. Ultimately, inexorably and inevitably, death drags us down without hope. You are not going to win. Someday it will be with you as it has been with those who have preceded us. Only in Jesus Christ is there victory over death and hope for eternity.

He is so up to date, even though he has been gone for a long time.  They say there are two things that we cannot escape, death and taxes.  True.  But death is the more serious for sure.  So much of it is seen on this campus.  Yesterday one of the two precious gals whom I sit with for breakfast came with her rollator and I could hardly believe my eyes – the days before yesterday she was brought over in a wheelchair because she had been the one who fell flat on her face.  But it was not long before I needed to call for JT’s to come for her IMMEDIATELY as she, all of a sudden got VERY sick.  One never knows.  I pray today she will be feeling much better.  It takes a long, long time to get over a jolt to the body as she had earlier.

Have a blessed Sunday and it is back to the heating pad for me.

Mega Blessings.  Marge H.

The new apartment – special! Pictures are here for the mini tour!! Welcome!!!

What a lovely day this has been.  Everything is completed – all pictures up – bathroom cabinets are up and even my first load of wash at this end of the campus is done.  Od and I can hang out together tonight and have popcorn and a Christmas DVD. (Oh — he will have cheese).

Here the pictures are!!!

Beginning with how the outside looks.


11315 W. Peoria Ave.  M6, Youngtown, AZ 85363DSCN0050.jpg

Looking west from the shared patio.DSCN0051.jpg

Opening the front door you are greeted by Loren.DSCN0052.jpg

Another segment of the LR.DSCN0053.jpg

Another view so you can see the divider curtain.DSCN0054.jpg

Part of the kitchen I had all new faucets put in and new cabinets in the Bathroom.DSCN0055.jpg

Looking the other way.  CANADIANS, you can see where you always fit in!!!!! Underneath the Canadian shelf is where I have some things Loren made for me.DSCN0057.jpg

Looking now into the BR This is Od’s sleeping area. The “brown” is a pad that his body heat warms to his liking for winter and cools to his liking for summer.DSCN0058.jpg

Part of the BR


Another view – my desk – work area for P2C.  Terri – here is where I work – already had some interesting work!!DSCN0060.jpg

And part of the bath just finished this morning.

There you have it – all 500 sq. ft, more or less.  But it is ours and it is home and it is every thing we could want. Loren is in every room, some how, some way.  I have often wondered what he would say if he could see my place and see how much of him is here and then if he could only see my heart and know that it is still his even though it isn’t possible.  He did not know that Lia would become a professional artist, nor did he have any idea that I would ask her to take me out of a portrait that he had wanted us to have made, and give him a right shoulder.  Marvelous work that she did.  She was only 20 then.

It has been a very, very rough going, even with all the smoothness, still rough,  Lonely at times, wading through areas of life that I never thought I would have to face even with his death.  But you do make it.  Some times you wonder. Some times you wish you could erase it all.  There is a song.  Not a christian song.  It was recorded back in the 40’s. I believe the title is “I would give a million tomorrows for just one yesterday”. Don’t know who recorded it and I know it is not one that I would want to remember except for this one sentence – the title of the song.  Ah, yes.  A million tomorrows for one whole day with him.

But life continues.  Lots of cracks and crevices and much less energy than in other years but you know the senior years are wonderful when you take a look at them.  You are more experienced.  You have learned much more.  You have the necessary brain and eyesight to absorb and to also let go.  You find things that seemed to be so important a few decades back don’t mean very much now.  Other things become important and life takes on a very new meaning.  I am glad to be 83.  God has let me live this long for a reason and it is onward we go with eyes on Home.

“Thro’ many dangers, toils, and snares, I have already come; ‘Tis grace hath bro’t me safe thus far, and grace will lead me home.”  (Amazing Grace   John Newton 1725-1807)

Amen!  Marge

Sitting and taking inventory of life…”earlier and now”… with the future so much brighter.

It is difficult at times to evaluate from where you have been to where you were taken and then through the process – where you are right now.

The past ten years have been most unusual and not at all anything what I thought I would ever go through as I did.  The Lord never left me in any way, shape or form, but I left Him to do whatever I felt I needed whatever “that” was that was ticking off each day of my life.

I contracted, somehow, what I believe was a Compulsive Shopping Disorder (CSD).  It is a very real problem and people (a/k/a family and friends)  should not discount it nor turn the one affected by it out to pasture.

Our emotions influence 80% of our financial decisions.  CSD is interwoven with feelings and emotions.  Compulsive buying (monomania) is a very real disorder. Very much involved with our emotional distress.

During my ten years of strangling my world, I purchased many sets of patio furniture, 6 pianos, all kinds of linens, dishes, furniture (3 lift chairs), 3 dishwashers, 2 refrigerators, two sets of washers/dryers, luggage, 27 lamps and more computers and laptops than I want to print, and it did not stop there.  There was so much more!!

After I would get home with purchases,  I would find I simply did not want what I had purchased.  There was always some thing wrong with it AFTER I got it home. Many times I would simply set it out by the big trash bin and of course, the items were picked up very quickly by others who knew that what was there was GOOD STUFF. Even moving became compulsive in a way.  I have now moved 12 times since June of 2008. Yes! I have loved every move.  Every little place has become “home” for that moment in time but satisfaction never set in and compulsion was always there and never out of reach.

How did  my family (son and daughter) fit in.  They did not.  They were not capable of understanding.  Everything was difficult at that time. Daughter responded by saying, “you have squandered my inheritance”.  Son responded by calling me some term in an email. Their families (my g’children) are 3 generations away, still young, have knowledge but the experience end of things they are gradually gaining as life keeps traveling along for them.  What they hear from parents, etc. is not knowledge, it is one side of the coin.

So….basically on my own I knew I was treading dangerous waters – always knew the Lord was there but I didn’t plan on Him pulling my chestnuts out of the fire for me.  Though He was always there, He was not always in command of my heart and soul. I DID know though, that He would not turn His back on one of his own……….and that brought me through dangerous waters.

I want to take you to some verses that were pivotal for me during the last while.   It was the Last Supper and the Lord had just said “And truly the Son of Man goes as it has been determined, but woe to that man by whom He is betrayed.”  The disciples talked among themselves as to whom it would be who would do such a thing. Jesus continues speaking……and then says to Peter!!!!!! “Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat. 32) But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me strengthen your brethren” (Luke 22:31, 32).

Jesus knows that Peter will deny three times that he knows Him. (vs. 31) But Jesus has prayed for Peter’s faith to not fail.  THEN………..the words that have meant so much to me: “when you have returned to Me….”

“When you have returned”…… grateful that what I did, has not taken me out of the Family of God.  There is always hope no matter what I get in to or what I go through.  He is right here with me.  He does not like what I choose to do at times, but He is there and for me.  He was there waiting.

Satan is a different ballpark.  He throws himself at us.  Shakes the living daylights out of us sometimes forcing us to do the wrong.  Yes.  What I did was wrong.  I believe CSD is a part of Satan’s arsenal.  His plans….his way to destroy us if possible.  

“….and when you have returned to Me….”

“…strengthen your brethren…”

I have returned and I will encourage you every step of the way as I write during the weeks to come.  Later, I will send pictures of our place. It is cosy and warm and home.

Od and I are completely settled in our new apartment and I love the kitchen where I can cook for a bit yet – at least during the holiday season.

My work begins again with Power to Change and I am looking forward to that very much.  So many people out there looking for help, searching for meaning to their living. Jesus is the answer but He is not One to shake them in their boots and force them to see things His way.  We must see the Lord and see the need in our lives of His way.  He is the only One who promises to return for His own some day and we are to be ready.  I can guarantee!!!  He will return for those who recognize Him as Lord and Savior and look to Him only for Eternal Life.  Believe me!  It is straight ahead!!

You may be in the middle of a very bad habit.  You are not alone.  There are many reading this right now that are secretly involved with a bad habit.  When we belong to the Lord, He will never let go of our hand even though we are hurled headlong.  That is a promise from the Word.  It is a promise for YOU too!!!!

In His Hands forever!










It is………..3 months until New Year’s Day!!!

I thot you would like to know that!  I am sitting here tonight with a very fine drizzle going on outside.  Will be the same tomorrow as well.  Nice!  I think Fall is here to stay for a bit.

I have moved.  I am moved.  All is in place and it is lovely……to me. I am so glad I had the opportunity to do so.  It reminds me of what “home” once was. Loren gently hangs from one wall.  Od is up on another wall.  And I am sitting here looking at the wall over my desk and my husband, my daughter and my son are “taped” to the wall along with eight words on a heart-shaped plaque:  “Be still and know that I am God”.

Yes. My back is holding, but “only” holding.  Gently does it for the next few days.  Od and I need to sit down, him over water and me over coffee, and inhale the quietness of this moment in time for us.

“Today” is the “tomorrow” that I thought about “yesterday” and it is gone.  Believe me – – time is going so quickly and life is rushing by as though it couldn’t take an extra second to stop and enjoy.

“Look well to this day for it is life.  The very life of life itself.  In it’s brief course lie all the realities and varieties of your existence.  The bliss of growth, the glory of action and the splendor of beauty.  For yesterday is but a dream and tomorrow is only a vision, but today well lived makes every yesterday  a vision of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well, therefore, to this day!  Such is the Salutation to the Dawn.”

Ah!  Yes!! I couldn’t remember the name of the above until I got to the last sentence.  Memorized this so many many years ago now but somehow it has never left me.

I’ll write more later.  Perhaps pictures too.

In His Hands……still and forever more!!

Marge H.

I have to laugh at times re my readers!!

When I was still on FB in a way, more or less, and I found I was going off of FB for a bit I said so in a posting and ask that if anyone wanted to contact me do so via email, as I would not be looking at FB comments.

Yip.  You guessed it.  I got replies on the FB section when I told people I would not be responding that way.  Some asked questions even.  No.  I did not reply.  I had said I would not. Laughable.

Now then, at the click of this post coming to you, the MacBook Pro will be down for perhaps close to a week.  So please, if you wish to talk to me, call me.  I will not be responding as the move is now on for Thursday of this week and not Friday.

Oh so many wires and plugs to undo.  What fun!! Well.  When I get back online it will be heading to the holiday season.  I was out this morning and all of the Christmas trees at Walmart are up for sale.  Cards are out, decorations are out and also for Hallowe’en, the same.

I am able to enjoy it all more now – each year it gets a bit better.  Some of you……….it will take a while but you too, will feel better.  If you don’t, then you are carrying a load that you should not. Don’t hurry it.  But don’t stall it, either.  The love of your life would want more than any thing for you to be happy once again.  I know that from the love of my life as he shared with me so many times how he wanted me to be happy after he was gone.  You don’t have to be remarried to be happy.  I have found my happiness in my Lord and the work that I do for P2C. It will begin again as I return in October and so with a great deal of satisfaction and commitment to my Lord I move on just as I am, where I am, doing what I am doing.

As a Christian, we have a Load Bearer and it is through and by Faith that we are able to smile again and continue on. Oh. Never the same!  Of course not!  But not stalled in a grief chapter for years and years and years.  If the Lord is in control of your life, you will smile again and remember other times with a sweet, sweet quietness that only the Lord can paint the tapestry of your being with.  Only the Lord.

See you all again in a few days.

In His Hands and On His Road with no turning back….no turning back!

Marge H.


A dear one and a fall yesterday…..

Dear readers I was going to wait until after the move to write but after yesterday I decided I would write.

About a year ago one of the ladies at a table at breakfast time left (for reasons I will not go into) and so there was a place at the time for a new person. The other three asked me if I would join them.

Now the funny part of all this is I told Jim Henderson the Chaplain that they had invited me to join them. He raised his eyebrows and said, “that is an honor”.  I said, “I know. But I have to be a lady now for an hour every morning”.  He raised those eyebrows again and said, “That could be a problem, but I can pray.”  Rascal. Well, he knows me well because I was his minister of music 25 years ago in Tempe, AZ

Well.  As time passed one more lady passed away.  We added May who will be 99 on 10/1. (I tease May because I tell her when I was born, she was a teenager)

Then more time passed and we lost another precious lady from the table and so there are three.  HOWEVER.  This morning at breakfast there were two.

Rena fell flat on her face and is in the hospital.  Just last week she asked for my phone number and I gave it to her as on her note she said I want you to have my phone number. Soooooo.  Today I called her and she was thrilled………………………………………  I remembered that just this past week when she came to breakfast as she sat down and I pushed her chair up to the table, she said, “I always look forward so much to the breakfast time here.”

Ah!  Yes!! As do each of us at that table – Rena, May and myself.  Scripture comes to mind right now.  It can be found in James 4:13-15.  It reads like this:

“Come now you who say, ‘Today or tomorrow, we shall go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit.’  Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow.  You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away.  Instead, you ought to say ‘If the Lord wills, we shall live and also do this or that”.

So many are passing on out here at LifeStream.  Some have had clinched fists when spoken to about the Lord and we knew when their name was on the board to be remembered at the memorial that if they had their way, their name would be torn off the list.  Then we have the precious ones.  We also have those who make a difference in a moment of time and for some as they make that difference it can sometimes be their last good moment in time.

Each morning as I leave the table I say to them, “see you in the morning, the Lord willing.”  Yes. The days are that fragile for us.  If the Lord wills, we will be at that table in the morning and if He doesn’t, we will some day be at another Table more magnificent than any table any of us have ever seen in our lives.

If you knew today,  tonight, even tomorrow would be your last, what would you do differently….. would you forgive?….would you try to make things right?….would you give that one compliment that you knew you should have but didn’t?…would you say you are sorry to that person that you know you should have?  You still have that time. Make a difference in some one’s life right now because there may not be a tomorrow for them….or worse….no tomorrow for you. Or “worser” yet…. if you don’t know Him, you are in a pickle and you better open that heart of yours to Life Everlasting, known and given only by the One who gave His all that we might live “if” we so choose.

Mega blessings on all.

Marge H.


At the end of another week~~~~

Not too much happening around here.  Mostly I am resting and helping Od to realize that the mess that is here won’t be like this for long.

I have a small path from the middle of the LR to the AC.  Od was excited to see me come home from shopping – – had run circles around the place and forgot that the “path” leads to no where but the wall He couldn’t turn around so he backed out.  I had to laugh at him..funny boy!!

We have the word – the movers will be here at 8am next Friday, 9/28.  They reminded me that they moved me from K5 to A8 on 9/28 last year.  This time is from A8 to M6.  Next time it will be from M6 to HEAVEN!!!!  No stops in-between.  There comes a time when you get fed up with people – – with things – – with ways of doing things that are NOT your way and never was.  There is a time when you begin to feel that you are not in the right place – you need to move on.  And some times moving on gives you a glimpse of where you could be and should be.  Any way this time next week we will be in our new “digs”.

Now then.  I have been asked to re-run the concept on Faith. Here it is.

“Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God.” Rom. 10:17.  It does not rest on some road map but in a relationship with God.  Remember that Christianity is not a religion it is a “relationship”.  And what sets Christianity apart from “religions” is that it is the only one that can boast of its Founder coming back some day.  That “some day” could be 3,000 more years.  It could be tomorrow.  We don’t know but we are to stay prepared because we won’t have time to get the nails done and the hair trimmed – we will go as we are right now but be changed as we are going.

FAITH IS………………….

Believing the Word of God and acting on it.  Acting on it is faith.

Here is the concept and once you get this, memorize it, believe it, live it.

Believing the Word of God is mental. Faith is actual.  The difference between belief and faith is that faith is belief with legs on it.  BELIEF is knowing the Word of God. FAITH is knowing the God of that Word.  Another point to remember is that we do not live by explanations we live by promises. Every thing in the Bible is promise upon promise.  So many promises that have already come true.  So many more promises yet to be fulfilled but don’t get the idea that they won’t be – – – they WILL be.

Onward we go. This Sunday morning our church pianist is out-of-town and I have been asked to do the service from beginning to end.  I am thrilled, excited and very humbled.  Five members of our church have asked for certain pieces of music somewhere down the road as I am given the opportunity to play.  So sweet of them.  This Sunday I will be doing “Ivory Palaces” for the special music time. Interestingly enough the “asked fors” have all come from the men in our church.  I think they all have memories of another time in their lives.  Don’t we all!!!!

Have a blessed weekend!  Pray for me at 10am Sunday and I pray that each of you will be in your church worshipping your Lord and if you don’t know Him, don’t wait too long.  Who knows!!  Sunday may be your last opportunity to hear the Word.

I won’t be posting again until after the move.  Til then…….. Mega Blessings on each.

Marge H.