Me….to you!

No Matter What….It makes NOOOOOOOO difference!

God is beyond any thing that the human mind can comprehend.  We cannot comprehend the One who made the Universe – who made the galaxies and put them all in space and when a star is no longer – He knows it.  When a hair falls from my head, He knows. When I was born, He knew everything about me.  When He formed me He knew what I would be doing at this exact moment.  AS WELL…………..He knew what I would be doing at the worst moment in my lifetime so far.  NOTHING is beyond His knowledge! He did not make us as robots – He made us and gave us a free will to use.  THAT tells us how much He loved us and how much He wanted us to love him unconditionally and without any strings attached.

Oh we do so much every day – not just me – you too – – lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness.  I put lying first because there is no one any where that I know that has never lied.  In fact, for most people that I know personally, I can tell you when, where, and why you lied. Shall I go on?  I don’t want to.

I want to major on something far more wonderful, far more unbelievable, far more humbling and that is WHO AM I – – – – – WHO ARE YOU in the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you are not a Christian you are none of what I am listing below.  A Christian is a Believer, announced to the public as such by actions, deeds, mind and heart. If you are a Believer, live to the hilt according to His Word.  Study it.  Take it to heart. Memorize it.  Live out what you say you believe.  James tells us to be  not only “hearers” of the Word but then to be “doers” of the Word.  This is where the free will comes in for us.  What we do with what we SAY we learn tells us exactly where we stand with the Lord.

My husband was one of a kind.  He was never one to stand on the street corner with a bible in one hand and yelling out what he thought was the Truth.  He lived the truth quietly but dynamically.  You had only to watch him and you saw a difference.  He had people in his life that said to him, “what is it that makes you tick!  You are so different from other men.” He was not perfect in any way.  He would be the first to tell you that.  But always he remembered, “As far as the east is from the west, so far has He forgiven all of my transgressions.”  He would stop and think about the awesomeness of that verse found in the Psalms.  Many times I knew I had been in the presence of the Lord as I stood or sat beside my husband. I had times I would tell him, “you are so disciplined”.  He would fire back, “I am not disciplined”.  I would fire back, “Everything is relative”.

I did not deserve the immensity of what the Lord gave me through Loren.  God allowed me to see and observe a Christian, and be trained by him as I watched his actions in good times and bad times. Feeble in his humanity but quietly a stick of dynamite that God used from time to time to lift up – to encourage – to introduce someone somewhere to his Lord.

I AM……………………………

Romans 8:16    A Child of God

Col. 1:13,14       Forgiven

Eph. 2:8             Saved by grace through faith

Romans 5:1      Justified

2 Cor. 5:17        A new creature

Romans 8:14    Led by the Spirit of God

Psa. 91:11           Kept in safety wherever I go

1 Peter 5:7         Casting all my cares on Jesus

Phil. 4:13            Doing all things through Christ

2 Cor. 10:5          Bringing every thought into captivity

Romans 12:1,2   Being transformed by a renewed mind

2 Cor. 5:21           The righteousness of God

Eph. 5:1                An imitator of Jesus

Job. 8:21               Filled with laughter and rejoicing

We serve a Risen Savior.   Let us lay before Him our hearts, minds, souls and let Him examine us and touch our lives with His healing hand of mercy and forgiveness.  We are truly transformed by the renewing of our minds as given to us in Rom. 12:1,2.

If you are NEVER in the Word of God……If you NEVER have the Bible in your home……If you never read from it…….If you never become a doer instead of a hearer you are most to be pitied because you have NOTHING at all that is of eternal worth.

There are no U-hauls at the cemetery.  You can be liked by thousands around you.  You can talk big and live big but…………….in the end………………..have nothing except what will be piled alongside with the tares and burned. ALWAYS – – WITHOUT EXCEPTION you can never be too bad or too good but you can be TOO LATE!

I might also add…….There is no record of non believers seeing Jesus after His Resurrection.  The last view the world had of Jesus Christ was bloody, hanging, naked, crucified and dead.

Between Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, we are told who Jesus presented himself to. Then in the end He sent the disciples (eleven) out with this commission.  “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.  He who has believed and has been baptized shall be saved, but he who has disbelieved shall be condemned.”  My Ryrie Study Bible tells me that if this means water baptism, it is unbelief and not failure to be baptized, that condemns.  Water baptism does NOT save.  However, splitting hairs over this does not seem too practical either.

No matter what!!!!! I am His!    Marge H.


Dr. Criswell says it so well…..

Genuine Repentance
   Before World War II, there were pacifists in many pulpits. When I was a young man going to school, I heard much about pacifism. Then on December 7, 1941, Pearl Harbor was attacked. After that we heard from one end of the country to the other, “I have been a pacifist, but I have changed. I am now ready to defend my country.” That is a form of repentance: “I have repented of my former attitude, I have changed.”
   There was a man in Kentucky who defended the distilleries. One day he helped pry a man out of the snow and ice in a ditch outside a bar on the edge of Louisville. The man had gotten drunk, and the barkeeper had pushed him out in the cold winter night. Staggering, the drunk had fallen into a ditch and frozen to death. The next morning when they found him, this man had to help pry him out of the snow. He said, “When we pried him up, I looked at the frozen man with mud all over his face and body, and I changed. I am now against the liquor industry. I have repented of my attitude.”
   Consider the testimony of a gambler who all the years of his life he made his living gambling. In his testimony he said, “One day I met a little boy. Talking to the boy, I learned that he was the son of the man with whom I had gambled the night before. I had won all of that man’s paycheck. Instead of being able to take his money home to clothe and feed the boy and the family, he had lost it all to me at the gambling table. When I looked at that ragged, half-starved boy, I changed. (End of his writing)
The blessed words in God’s Word:  “I Repent”
Blessed Reader – – take this to heart.  There is no one any where, any place that should not say, or believe those two words:  I REPENT.  If you do not feel you need to “repent”, you are the most to be pitied.  Because you are the one who needs it the MOST!!
In His constant care.  Marge

Those two bookends……

……another book (chapter/month) goes on the shelf between the bookends of birth and death.  So many “books” are between the two bookends now.  I look at the “book” of May and see so much joy that fills part of the space between the two bookends.

May 14th.  I completed another year of living.  84 now.

May 17th.  It was 66 years ago that I accepted Christ as my Savior.

May 28th.  It was 52 years ago that my son, Dave, accepted Christ at the Billy Graham Crusade in Winnipeg.

May 30th.  It was also 52 years ago that my daughter, Jan, accepted Christ at the Billy Graham Crusade in Winnipeg.

Well.  With all of us saved, we lived a life totally empty of problems – only had the joys that fill life with happiness and only good things.   Ha Ha Ha  Don’t I wish.  THAT was not so.  It started a life of total upheaval.  Hardly a day or week, for sure when we didn’t have problems of one kind or another.  No one to blame. And I mean that too.

Satan had been waiting in the wings.  He knew he had a family whereby he could dig his heels in and express himself in ways that really only he knew how to do.  But through it all the Lord hovered and was there, never to leave us.  It is strange how Satan and the Lord work.

Satan is excited about what he can do to us.  Check out Job and his first family.  God told him he could do any thing that he wanted to, to Job but he could not take his life.  Remember that?  So he took EVERYTHING that he had – – everything!!!!  Oh, of course, not Mrs Job.  She was working for Satan, so let’s keep her!!!!!!

But Job stood tall and would not concede to Satan and God blest him with a second family and a life that was so worth living.

Speaking for my own life, The Lord hovered and never left.  I turned my back at times but still came back time and again to where I KNEW was the only place that would bring me to Eternity at the right time in my life.  The Lord is always hovering – – always waiting for us to come to Him not because He is dragging us but because we “want” to be where we know we should be in order for the blessing to be ours as we live daily.

Remember in Revelation?  “Behold I stand at the door and knock. If any man hear My voice AND OPEN THE DOOR, I will come in to him and sup with him and he with Me.” (Emphasis mine).  AND OPEN THE DOOR.  We are not robots that are led/directed by Him.  We have a part in our relationship with Him.  ALWAYS.  First John 1:9 reads, “If we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”  He is faithful and just but we have to confess first.  He already knows every sin we will commit in our lifetime and Jesus died ONCE for all of the sins between my bookends.  There is no charge to me for forgiveness.  All I have to do is NOT TO ASK for it but to ACKNOWLEDGE THAT I HAVE SINNED.  He already knows I have sinned and He has already paid the price and I am forgiven in one sense but it is registered to my account when I ACKNOWLEDGE that I have sinned.  And not in general terms either.  We need to be specific.  Yes.  Every night we have sins from the day to confess. Should you believe that you don’t have any sins to confess nightly, better be careful of that.  Don’t be in generality but be specific.  We each have sins of omission and also commission DAILY in our lives.  His Word says, “if we say we have not sinned we make Him a liar and His Word is not in us.”  That falls right on the heels of 1John 1:9.

The same is true for you.  Do you now Him as your personal Savior?  You can.  So easy.  No course to take. Nothing. Just reach out and say yes to Him.  Acknowledge that you are a sinner.  Thank Him for what He did for you long ago at Calvary. And then ACCEPT His free gift salvation.  THEN FORGET “WHERE” YOU HAVE BEEN AND WHAT YOU DID.  It is forgiven.

This is where satan comes in again and chips away at us.  We humans “remember” what we have done.  God says He will cleanse us from all unrighteousness.  He remembers our sin(s) no more (that are confessed).  It was once said that “God takes our sins and throws them in his deepest ocean and then puts a sign on top that reads, ‘ABSOLUTELY No Fishing!’ ”

No.  You will not forever be without sinning – you will continue.  But You have the Savior who will work on your behalf and present you some day to our Heavenly Father and we will be together with Him for all time.

And so tomorrow as I am writing, it will be June first.  Another important milestone for me as well. I have the month of June off from my piano work at The Shepherd’s Gate church.  What a church.  What a pastor.

We were at the end of the service and Pastor Jere was giving the announcements when all of a sudden he said, “I just gotta do this. Come on Bob”.  And so I saw the two of them headed my way and I was wondering how I was going to get out of the way for whatever they were headed to do.  Butttttttt.  They were headed for me.  Long story short.  Several others came to the piano bench and they all laid hands on me and prayed.  The upcoming surgery was much on their minds as well.  I was and am, so humbled by the love of each and every person there and my pastor who is so good with his preaching.  On May 26th, he did not use a single note for his message. So blest in every way.

June 3rd I will have a total knee replacement at 7:30 in the a.m.  Od is spending his vacation with the Kimber Pet Wash and Suites.  Here is a picture of the “hotel” portion and also a picture of one of the suites.


This is one of the “suites”.  His duffle bag is ready plus his blanket/food/meds and lots of love.

Then to top all of this off, June 3rd, my daughter, Jan, will complete her 60th year of living.  Oh my!  Was it really 60 whole years ago that I had my second child?  Wow.  How the years pass.

I have a portrait of Jan in her wedding gown which was worn years later by one of her daughters.  So special.  She was the loveliest of lovelies.  I am sure that every young lady looks back to that day and it never dims in their heart and soul.  Jan grew up to be a lovely woman; daughter, wife, mother and now g’mother.  How the years take on newness, change, and loveliness of the heart and soul when it belongs to the Lord.  No matter what comes your way, you know you can make it because of Him and Him alone!!!!

How I wish we could live some years over once again for their beauty in our lives.  But life has no dress rehearsals – it is only one time through.  No repeats.  What we do for Christ is all that is important.  And it is all that lasts.

May God bless.  May God forgive.  May God extend His mercy in places where we have made messes and help us Lord – please help each of us to fix our eyes on You and You alone.  You are our only Hope.

Mega Blessings to my readers.  Marge H.  Let June begin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Too late………

Matthew 25:31-46
And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me (25:40).

Today is the tomorrow that we envisioned and hoped for yesterday.  What have you done with yesterday….tomorrow….today!!  They are actually all wrapped up into one and each day we live in the presence of all three at once.  But we can only make a difference when it is “today”.  Marge (This is from Dr. Criswell’s teachings)

   Once I heard a mountain preacher in Kentucky make an appeal that we be kind and generous to those around us now, because tomorrow may be too late. He described a farmer who had a loyal wife. They both worked long and hard, with the result that within a few years they prospered greatly. The husband took all the money they made and bought more land and more stock, year after year going through the ceaseless rounds of acquiring more fields to raise more corn, to feed more hogs, to make more money, to do the same thing again. Each year the faithful wife would ask for a new silk dress, only to be refused by the miserly husband who spent nothing on her, but everything on the stock and the farms. Finally, overworked and heartbroken, the faithful wife died prematurely and was laid to rest in the cemetery on the side of the hill.
   The tragedy of what he had done came with such crushing force to the soul of the husband that something snapped in his reason. One day he was found wrapping yards and yards of the finest silks and satins around the headstone of his poor wife’s grave. “But,” said the mountain preacher, “it was too late.”
   It is not tomorrow that the recording angel begins to write God’s book of remembrance. He is writing now. It is not tomorrow that we should begin the gracious, sweet, humble ministries that so richly bless the lives of others. Let us do them now.

Peter…..Whom do they say I am? Who do YOU say that I am……

The problem today with so many people is that they are on the band wagon for Christ one day and off the next.  How can this happen~question of the hour would be, were they ever converted in the first place.  Perhaps a Christian by association only.  But let the winds of trouble attack them and they are off somewhere looking for something that they can attach to or feel good with. And then the mockery of the Lord in their words would be that God has blest them with what they have now.
I would suggest that the conversion experience is in question.  Christ is always and forever associated with the faith issue.  All of the OT patriarchs were living under the banner of faith – they would not see physically, at that time what it was that they were believing .  But they had “FAITH” in the God of their lives and believed Him for their direction.
It took Noah over a hundred years to build the ark.  Can you just imagine how much taunting he received!!  Laugh as they might have.  They were NOT laughing last.  They had never seen rain before – there had only been a “mist” that God gave.  THEN….the rain came and came and came and came and they were knocking on every inch of that Ark asking, begging, pleading to be let in.
THAT is exactly the answer that the multitudes of those living today and all through the centuries when the last moment comes and the “wheat” and the “tares” are separated and there is no more time for decision making.  How about you?  Are you safe in His care? Or are you out there somewhere, doing your thing and the Bible is not even in your home?
Thou art the Christ of all………………………..or nothing!  Christ does not “need” help.  He did the creation in the beginning. Oh you say, God was the One.  Absolutely.  Annnnnnnnd, the Word says, “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word WAS God.”
Make your choice my friend and stand by it………………..and also be prepared for the final decision in your life.
In His complete holding!  Marge

June! The Book! The Blog! The Lord!

A month that has been embedded in my soul for a long time.  Life was turned upside down and over hard many, many, many times in the ten Junes that are past.  Now, the eleventh June is just off in the horizon and I can see it coming and soon it will hit earth and bounce a time or two and then be safely embedded in the history of time.

It was the year 2012 that “One Woman’s Journey into Widowhood” went live.  Due to the writing of that subject CrossBooks set up and created a Blog for me.  It was all a part of the “package” with them. It was to help others who were on this journey and perhaps find help, a peace, a walkway for the crookedness of life at that moment.  So……..the Blog was born.  I did receive several 5 stars for the book on Amazon.  That was nice. CrossBooks closed their doors a few years back and so they are no longer and I did not renew the book with another publishing company.  I felt it had run it’s course.

It gave me freedom at times.  It gave me peace when sharing how my Lord was there even when the smoke of yearning and regaining a life together was forever gone.  It gave me a way to tell others that we were on a journey not by choice, but by circumstance.  That even with this kind of a choice which will never be of our choice, still, we are not able to choose the circumstance that goes along with it. It gave me a way to release the inner struggles of life.  It gave me a reason some days for living when nothing around me would or could give help or encouragement.

I often wanted to write a second book, now that I had reached the Widowhood village of life.  But at $10,000.00 per book, I did not think it would be that helpful because each of us have to travel the road “alone” as no one can share any portion of it because it belongs only to us and others can only come alongside for a bit but then we have to go back and shut that door and find only loneliness waiting and the quietness that makes us wish we could make sound waves that would lift us high above the clouds of misery and loneliness that only the one who was gone could fulfill in life.

Life has turned into a quiet fort and there is peace in the valley of life that comes only when submission of life to the Lord for His leading and direction is in full swing.  I tell you friends, there is no one you need to turn to except the Lord and then with a bowl of faith highly seasoned from above, you follow some times in the fog, some times in the hail of life, some times in the sunlight, some times just in sitting down and muttering to the Lord, “let me touch the hem of your garment.  That is all I need to be able to carry on”.  Ah.  Yes.  The woman with the blood issue knew if she could only touch the hem of His garment she would be healed.  Talk about faith.  THAT was faith alive and well on planet earth way back centuries ago.

The Word of God reads, “Do not call to mind the former things or ponder things of the past.  Behold, I will do something new.”  (Isa. 43:18,19a) Then in verse 21 of that same chapter, God said, “The people whom I formed for Myself will declare My praise.”

Loren is Home.  I am still here.  But only those who have accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour will find themselves facing Him on the shores of Heaven when their time on earth is finished.

Jesus Himself said, “No man cometh unto the Father except through Me”.  Did you get that!!!  No other person, alive or dead.  The only One you and I have to deal with is Jesus Christ the Lord – through Him, we come before the Father.

Dissect as much as you like, the words are cutting, and set in stone.  Step out of bounds all you wish but as Peter spoke after Pentecost, “There is salvation in no one else; for there is no other name under heaven that has been given among men by which we must be saved.”

God never did…never has….never will….direct any one, any where, in any way, to someone other than His Son, Jesus Christ.  God loved all of us so much that He gave His Son on the cross that we might live.  And to throw any thing, or any one, any where, up to him as better at caring for us than He is, is a lie straight from the hand of satan.  And where satan’s hand is believed and accepted, the ticket holder is bound straight for Hell with no turning back. God would NEVER throw you to any one except His Son Jesus Christ.

Don’t be that stupid when you know better.  When some thing makes you “feel” good, it is from Satan.  Satan gives you his best FIRST.  God gives you His best LAST. From God we don’t “feel” good, we “have” an under lying peace that passes all understanding while we are going through the tsunami life throws at us. God and Him alone is all that secures Eternity for me, for you, for the millions and billions out there floundering.

I continually go back to Job.  Satan killed all of his family and took away every thing that he had including all of his animals, etc.  Never did he turn his eyes to some one else – he stood firm, “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him”.

In closing out the Blog I can see a stronger, wiser and more dependent me upon my Lord because He is all there is that secures Eternity for me.

In His Hand….On His Road…deliberately with my eyes on Eternity which is in the horizon for me at 84 years of age.

Marge Humphrey

The domain will be up for renewal soon and I do not plan to renew. It has run it’s course.  It has been good both for me and for the readers through these eleven years.  It is another part of life that has been enriching and fulfilling and something that I would have never have guessed I would work with.

I will continue to email ( I do not text. Facebook is also not a part of my life.  Just not my style. FB to me has always been a way of communicating when you want friends but you don’t want to take time for them.  There really is never any thing more than a thumbs up sign, or a sentence or two and that’s it.

My era was one of writing notes or letters or phone calls, or meeting for lunch somewhere together.  We took time for each other but in our world today we are going so many different ways that there simply isn’t time for what used to be important to the texture of our lives. I am moving on with  Isa. 43:18,19a in focus.(above)

Bob Hope used four words so many times, “Thanks for the memory“. Me too!!



Are you one of “them”…. Aborting a Baby is an American Freedom!!!!!!!!!!

How is it that just a few ignorant people who yell the loudest and can make the most disruption can destroy what we stand for?  Another group want some of the major stores to take down the flag.

I can tell you EXACTLY how it has come about.  About twelve to fifteen years ago I had asked family members to read and sign a petition for AFA.  It had to do with Target and their bathroom situation.  The reply was, they did not want to get involved – they just wanted to stay up on the news.

How ignorant can an intelligent person be?  Well.  It is the attitude of that one person who didn’t want to tarnish themselves by standing for what was right to do because they didn’t want to be “involved”.  HOGWASH!!  This is the kind of a person that has gotten our world around us like it is.  Don’t get involved.  Not necessary. And so the result is the stupid people can get their way and we are the ones who suffer from it.

The flag.  The Pledge.  The cross. Get it all down.  Out of the way.  Ban the Bible from all Veterans Displays. Oh and lets abort everything that we don’t like.  I read just this week that ABORTING A BABY IS AN AMERICAN FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE SUCH STUPIDNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  And let’s be sure that the definition of illegal isn’t important! Let’s LIVE!!!!!!!!!!  Well.  I hope it will hit home the hardest somewhere along the way when the going gets tough.  Let’s give all peoples a touch of the ignorant actions  of the day and see how enjoyable that is.

Everything is getting out of hand.  Everyone everywhere has rights but responsibility is not a part of the game.  What happened to us?

Please friends!  There is still time.  Let us one by one join on the right side of things before it is too late and our democracy has dwindled to almost nothing.  Make a difference in your generation…….and mine.

Under His guidance.  Marge