My days hold less than they used to. M–U–C–H LESS! This morning a dear friend took me shopping and we went to two big stores. NOPE. NOT WalMart. Surprised??
Needless to say when she got me home, I put away what I needed and THEN I headed for the bed rest for a wee bit. You got that “wee bit” didn’t you!!!! The “wee bit” turned in to several hours —— 12:30 to 3:50. That tells you how my body is affected by what I do.
My mind jumps back to Psa. 90:10. You know it well. Belonged to Moses – He was such a stalwart believer in God – he understood well and translated what he understood into a language that we could understand fully. Buttttttt……not at the beginning – he stuttered and stammered and wanted more than anything for God to choose someone else to do his work. God became ANGRY with Moses and gave the job to Aaron. That was the beginning though, wasn’t it! Moses changed and right up to the very end he was one of God’s hardest working servants. THEN AT THE END….he became angry – righteously angry we would say, but God wouldn’t. In so doing, God did not allow him to take the people over into the Promised Land. Can you believe that!!!!! God told him to strike the rock – he struck it SEVERAL TIMES. Of course he was angry with the stupid people not with God. But nonetheless he did wrong in God’s sight and it was not adultery, stealing or murdering, but EQUALLY AS WRONG IN GOD’S SIGHT.
“For all our days have passed away in Your wrath; we finish our years like a sigh. 10) The days of our lives are seventy years; and if by reason of strength they are eighty years, yet their boast is only labor and sorrow; for it is soon cut off and we fly away. 11)Who knows the power of Your anger? For as the fear of You, so is Your wrath. 12) So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” Psa. 90:9-12
When I woke up from my “extended”napping, I thought for a moment of the church up in Winnipeg that we wiggled our hearts into and loved immensely. The couples began to parade across my mind and as they did the men began to fade in the distance and I saw the women one by one. I had worked beside all of them, one way or another. We had gone out for lunch together many, many times. We served together on almost every committee in the church at one time or another.
But now……..they were moving through my vision as I realized they had gone Home to live with their Lord for all eternity. One by one. I counted 35 and stopped counting. It was like a whole generation passing through the mind, leaving memories vivid with action from the Ladies Missionary Work to the Music Ministry, to the Youth Department, to Bird River Bible Camp, to Loren having taught every adult class in the church at one time or another.
Still there are a few – – a very few – – left and I am among them. We have so few days left to serve – – to remember – – to pass on to the next generation what the Lord delivered into our hearts in our day and in our time. Did we do as we should Lord? People are jumping out of the pages of the Word to me right now. Especially Paul. “Jesus Christ, came into the world to save sinners of whom I AM CHIEF.” Oh Paul……..You of all people……..I strike a line through your name and place my own. I AM CHIEF. The sinner of all sinners.
But yet, Lord, you dared to sacrifice your life that I might live. Where in the world do I find a worthiness for myself in what You did!!!! I don’t. I can only say Lord, forgive me for all wrong doings, for all sins of omission and commission, knowing I still have time to live and do or not do as You would nudge. And we need to pray this prayer every single day/night because the Bible says we all are sinners – – all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. This is an every day, every hour, every moment in time affair. We MUST STAY PRAYED UP!!!!!!! WE MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Every person reading my post tonight is in the same boat I am in. The sins of omission and commission. They are the easiest for us to get by and overlook. The Word tells us that God hates a liar. We lie by keeping still when we know the answer. I have had it happen to me over and over again and to watch those people keep on telling me one thing or skirt around the answer completely is very interesting. We all lie EVERY SINGLE DAY. The sins that “kill” us are not necessarily the biggies: adultery, stealing, murder. THEY ARE THE ONES WE ALL DO EVERY DAY AND GET AWAY WITH IN OUR MINDS.
“Those who are planted in the house of the Lord shall flourish in the courts of our God. 14) They shall still bear fruit in old age; they shall be fresh and flourishing, 15) To declare that the Lord is upright; He is my rock, and there is no unrighteousness in Him”. Psa. 92:13-15.
Yes, Moses You hit the nail on the head. Lord. Teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
Truly, the body is weak, old, falling apart slowly. May I – – may you – – stop wasting time and begin to use every single moment of each of our days which are left for Him in whose House we are “expecting” to live for all eternity. It will not be on our terms. It will be on HIS TERMS and His terms ALONE!!!!!!!!
Expectantly waiting for His bidding! Marge