….How many times have I written that before. I am taking a week off from my mentoring on P2C. I have certainly had enough of moving. I know. You have re-read that statement probably several times. There always comes a time in a life when things change and many times it is for the better.
I have several who have determined that I was out of it and left me to flounder although instead of floundering I have found there has been a purpose for every single move. I know what those purposes have been and I really don’t care what others think because I am not ashamed of what I have done. However, having said that, what I have done has not ever been the real me, because I was never like this before. But I have plowed through it and I would do it all over again if need be.
Amongst all of the above was trying to find help for back spasms that were around the clock for two years!! It was *accidental that I latched onto a Spine Surgeon who said I was not a candidate for back surgery but she was sure that a Neuromuscular Massage was what I needed. So this was really a last resort to try. The gal who specialized in this area, told me that it was important to get under the 8 layers of muscle in the back. She would work my back using only two fingers for 30 minutes twice a week. Once relief had been found then we could begin to level off and know what and when to do for maintenance purposes. The unfortunate part of this was it was not covered by Medicare. Three of the moves were in the effort of finding help. Out here no Doctor would see me because I was a new patient. I visited many Urgent Care Offices during this period of time. The present Doctor that I have I was finally able to begin to see him but for the first visit I had a 3 month wait because of being new. By this time the back issue was in maintenance and we could move forward.
The reverberations from all the moves have been felt wide and far. It has truly been an experience that I never ever thought would cross my path. But I have learned a lot but I do wonder why did I have to go through each one as I did. I probably will never know.
Well. With the back always on the brink of folding and the feet/legs/knees as they are I really have little alternatives but the few that I do have I will work on.
Wednesday morning Od and I will move back to A-8. It is the health of my body that tells me I cannot walk the distances daily that I need to until I am ready to enter the next phase of living.
Many of you are readers from far off and have had your personal problems and have followed me because of help that has stemmed sometimes from my failures and other times from my “onward-let’s-do-it” episodes. So with all of my failures and all of my problems with those who failed to even try to understand and help, perhaps that was the way that I needed to go in order to lean…to trust….to keep my eyes focused on that which was in the unseen part of my life – – known as the Lord. He never once turned his back on me. He couldn’t. He had given His life for me. For me to waste what He had done for me was not an option. It isn’t for you either. He is the only One – – the ONLY ONE you will ever need. Yes. You there in the Mid-western States who have followed me for years now, know that with every problem you have, He IS sufficient. Not right this moment. Nothing will change immediately. It doesn’t work that way. But you have to keep your eyes fixed with faith knowing that He is SUFFICIENT, whether you can see it or not and whether you can “feel” it or not.
This is God’s Word. These are some of the verses that fit into my life over these past many, many moves. Eleven years without my Loren and eleven moves within those eleven years.
“..the Lord thinketh upon me…” Psa. 40:17a
“Do not call to mind the former things or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new.” Psa. 43:18,19a
“And your ears will hear a word behind you, ‘This is the way, walk in it’, whenever you turn to the right or to the left.” Isa. 30:21
“Do not be afraid….Do not be discouraged…Go out to face tomorrow and the Lord will be with you!” 2 Chron. 20:17
“The steps of a woman are established by the Lord. And He delights in her way. When she falls, she shall not be hurled headlong, because the Lord is the One who holds her hand.” Psa. 37:23, 24
“When she falls“. Because He cared for me – – died for me – – saved me by dying – – He has held my hand so that I have not been hurled out into space with nothing and with His agape love held on to me perhaps with only a glance from His eye. He need do nothing really because He is all-powerful. He can do any thing…..in any way. But I know that I know……..He kept me. Otherwise I would have been lost many, many times.
So. Having said all of that, my testimony is, “I trust in You, O Lord; I say ‘You are my God’. My times are in Your hands.” Psa. 31:14.15a
Okay. So where do I go from here!! My two Life Verses still hang in there with the assurance that they are for me!
“I will take care of you all of your life. Yes. Even when your hair is white with age. I made you and I will take care of you. I will carry you along and be your Savior”. Isa. 46:4
“I know the plans I have for you. They are plans for good and not for evil. Plans to give you a hope and a future.” Jere. 29:11
So friends – all of you out there – – – – – – there is light at the end of the tunnel. But the tunnel may be very, very long. Don’t give up and don’t give in. He is ALL YOU NEED.
Thank you Lord.
*Nothing is accidental with the Lord so my use of that word was very loosely used. We are never “lucky” with Him either, because He is for real – always and forever. Count on Him!!!!!