Thanks for the great number ~~~~~

~~~~of you that have emailed.  Yes! I will miss you, too.  My little Od had to see his Doctor today and it was very tiring for me and I am sure for him too.  He has slept a lot this afternoon.

As I sat down to read this afternoon, I ran across the following – it had been printed a year ago.  I had forgotten.  But I believe in it completely. Here it is.

To Be Happy You Must:

Let go of what is gone~~~

Be grateful for what remains~~~

Look forward to what is coming next.

Like it?  I can vouch for every line of too.  Let go of what is gone. It really wasn’t worth keeping or you would still have it.  Be grateful and look forward always because your Lord is near.

As I sat and went through some papers further, I ran across this beautiful poem by C. T. Shudd.  I love the last paragraph of it.  Thought you would like it too.

“Only one life, yes only one.  Now let me say, “Thy will be done”; and when at last I’ll hear the call, I know I’ll say, “Twas worth it all”. Only what’s done for Christ will last.”

The poem in its entirety is entitled, “Only One Life”.

Enjoy!

Abiding in the shelter of the Most High!  Marge

 

 

I have to tell you it was ~~~~~~

~~~~very tempting this morning when I pulled up my mail, there was the final call for me to keep my domain.  And yes!  I knew these last days of the Blog would be so difficult to give up.  I have enjoyed – – – so much – – – each of you and your responses, thots, ideas, and etc., that have come my way through these years.  Can hardly believe the length of time we have had together.

Actually this is the reason I want to “talk” with you this one more time.  Our quiet time each day is so very important.  I have always enjoyed Charles Spurgeon and also Adrian Rogers – their thoughts – their sermons – their bible studies.

I am not one for our present-day Bible Studies though I know the gals are pertinent but just not in the way I prefer.  At times, they wander too much. But the above two mentioned are superb in every way.  I am presently doing studies by the late Adrian Rogers.  Currently on How to Practice the Presence of God.  There is a part 1 and a part 2.  I am learning so much with his style of writing/studying.  I just began Part 2 this morning and find the in-depth very important for me.

Should you be interested in going beyond what is out there today, here is the email address.  http://www.lwf.org/bible-study/how-to-practice-the-presence-of-god-part-2-12149

Take a look and see what you think.

In His Hands. and On His Road.  Marge

 

One week from yesterday (6/30)~~~~~~

~~~~my site will close down.  I am just bursting with joy  Never in my wildest dreams did I dream of what is happening to me these days.  A God-thing FOR SURE!!!!!!!!!!

In my living room sets the piano.  The mice had a hey-day with it, but it is all cleaned up, the felts have all been replaced,  it has been tuned and the gentleman who came to repair and tune said it is a very, very good piano.  Baldwin built it when they were still in business. This is all a result of a church with a “staff of members” who love their Lord and get people back on their feet and into their fields of service with all of the help necessary.  The piano is mine to use as long as I am alive.  When I go Home, the piano has on the back of it the info. for returning it to the “owners”, a/k/a Emmanuel Baptist Church,  Dan Fosnight, Pastor and Glen Dwiggins, Worship Leader. I will do my best in preparing my music to bring honor to the church and to those who have taken the time to see that I can work once again for as long as the Lord gives me the time.

Now for the latest chapter to the piano story.  I was at Hines for lunch yesterday when Pastor Dan came in. Oh, yes!!!!  When he comes around you wonder what God-thing is about to happen.  He asked me if I wanted to go shopping. Long story short.  There was an estate sale of a person I had known for years in the music world.  She has moved to CA to be with her daughter and the sale was in progress.  The “sale” included/includes the storage style bank boxes full of – – – – – what else but – – – – – MUSIC.

She is an organist first, a pianist second. Butttttttttttt. I was able to recover books that I had from other times – not all of them certainly – but around 16 books.  For those of you who know the composers, 4 of them were the Fred Bock Books.  Those books sold in their day for $24.95 each.  When I got home I figured that with the price tags that were on the books that I got, I have close to $200 in books and we paid $10 for the bunch. (No, I have not found the arrangement of Silent Night done in chime fashion for piano……….. yet.)

I am wanting to go back today and pick up a “funeral” and a “wedding” oriented book to have on hand.  With the way God is giving me back music I believe I need to be able to play at either of the two above given services.  Maybe I will and maybe I won’t but at this stage I have to say God is working in ways never before since Loren went Home.  As well, the church has a lovely organ and I want to pick up just a bit of organ music (the same fashion that I want to do the Funeral and Wedding music).

God has brought me through a lot.  So be it.  I am here.  I have survived.  And I am going forward.

I do have a knee replacement just ahead of me.  Probably by September.  I need my Family Doctor’s approval for it and since I could not get in with my new Doctor until mid-July the replacement is on hold for that reason only.  I was recommended to a Surgeon whom I met this week and I like him very much.  In fact when we met he asked when I wanted to have it done and I said, “yesterday”.  Then he told me that yesterday he had done 7 replacements. All the doctors that helped us through our lives together, Loren and I, are now replaced and I feel like I have never felt before, since Loren went Home.

“The Lord upholds all who fall, and raises up all who are bowed down.  The eyes of all look expectantly to You, and You give them their food in due season.  You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing”.  (Psa. 145:14-16).

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P.S.  As I have looked back on posts posted not very long ago, I see how I found it difficult to sit down, play and then get up and go to my seat.  WOW.  Now – just such a short time later, I find that that portion of my life is fading off into the past now.  It does not affect me as it once did – –  so long ago – – and yet, so recently.  Amazing, isn’t it!!

In His Hands!  Marge

 

My Loren would be so pleased~~~~

I have to share this with you, so you can rejoice with me.

Had the left knee replaced four years ago this August. Just recently the right knee has been so painful at times and more recently excruciating, to say the least. Still had one of my “heavy meds” from back-spasm-days that I take when I have something I want to do and not miss out on!!!!

This morning,  I barely made it home from breakfast at Hines.  Called Pastor Dan.  (He is a walking medical encyclopedia) and within an hour of calling for help, the phone rang.  Yip.  You guessed it!!!! He had a recommendation for me. Long story short.  I called.  A cancellation had come in just a wee bit before I called.  I’m in.  Thursday morning.  THIS WEEK at 9:15.  (O yes!  The piano has its appointment at 2pm ~~ same day!!) When that piano and I get our aches and pains and bad tones fixed we will be ready to FACE THE WORLD and CHANGE IT!  (Oh alright! Maybe not quite “that”) But both of us will be in much better shape than either one is right now!

ISN’T GOD GREAT!!!!  Yes!!!! I am going to miss telling you all how GREAT HE IS.

“From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the Lord is to be praised.” Psa. 113:3

“Praise God from whom all blessings flow!”  My Loren~~~~~already in His presence, rejoicing and praising Him.  I can HARDLY wait until all the mess of this world is over/finished/done with and He will be the “center of attraction” for all those who believed and kept their eyes fixed on JESUS.

In Him.  Marge H.

Nine Years finished – the Tenth has begun!

 

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6/20/08 – 6/20/2017.     Nine years now.

On February 14, 2017,  we would have celebrated our 50th anniversary.

Time!  It has kept marching on.  Quietly, loudly.  Slowly, swiftly.  Never missing a beat. The crescendos.  The ritards.  The glissandos.  The fortissimos.  The pianissimos – –  have all added up to having one beautiful, beautiful picture of a life lived with someone loved so dearly for so long and never to be forgotten.  We celebrated our 41st anniversary on 2/14/2008, however it was bittersweet because we knew it was our last.  41 years~~~Never long enough.  Never!

I have connected with a Dentist, a Family Doctor, and  a Church Home – Emmanuel Baptist Church. (All of which I never had when I was out here before)

It was Mother’s Day and my birthday, and I felt led to join EBC.  I love it!!  Already I have friends and the Pastor teaches in such a unique way and I have a church home for the first time in a very long time.  The people are sooo friendly and you feel like you have known them forever. I have been asked to play the Prelude the 2nd and 3rd Sunday mornings of each month.  Then on Sunday afternoons, I go with Pastor Dan to a lovely Retirement center called Woodmark Assisted Living, for a time of Senior-singing and Pastor Dan sharing the wonderful words of hope and promise to those whose lives have slowed down considerably!  So as long as I am able, the piano and I will once again work together.  The church has given me a piano to use and I am so humbled by their love for me.  I promise I will do my best to bless them and glorify my Lord whenever/wherever I play.

LifeStream Complete Senior Living Campus is where I will finish my “living-on-the-earth” days.  Everything that I need is here.

The piano has resurfaced.  Not the same.  Not flamboyant in any way.  I have no goals, no intentions,  no deadlines, no plans to take the world by a storm with my piano work. Just to know that God can use me as He sees fit is all that is necessary. After all!  I am “not” thirty anymore — or — 60 “OR” 70…………..Orrrrrrrr  80!!!!

How would Loren feel?  If we could be together for just a few moments, we would walk hand in hand and I would tell him there is “One thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forth to those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus”.  And, “I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content”,  knowing that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”. (Phil. 3:13b,14 – – 4:11b – -4:13)

His quiet smile would once again surface as it had so many, many times in other years. I can almost hear him say one more time, as our hands would begin to “let go” of their grip and as he would begin to fade out of sight, “I knew you could do it, darling”.  And with those words, the perfume of his blessing would swirl upon my being. And I would know that I’m going to be “okay” in every way, the rest of the way Home.

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P.S.  With love in my heart for each of my readers from these past years of posting.  I have enjoyed it sooooo much.  Your phone calls ~~~always so encouraging. Thanks for stopping by and for our time(s) together. I leave my life verses with you.

  1.  “I will take care of you all of your life.  Yes, even when your hair is white with age.  I made you.  I will take care of you.  I will carry you along and be your  Savior” (Isa. 46:4) LB
  2. “I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord.  They are plans for good and not for evil.  Plans to give you a hope and a future” (Jere. 29:11). LB

Contact me anytime at margeh73@gmail.com.       Cell: 623-512-8683.

The painting that graces the top of my post was the work of my g’daughter, Lia Bardin Bomar. She took a portrait of the two of us, taken back in 1988 – and gave me, “just Loren”.

Loren was 78 at the time. (Little did we know we would have 20 more years together or 7,300 days.  Guess what!!  They were all over nine years ago.)  God plans so graciously though, doesn’t He!!

How do you put an ocean in a teacup??

 

 

Interesting~~~~

Loren had been Home for about six weeks when the following conversation took place.

Mildred:  Dearie!  How are you doing?

Me:  I am numb most of the time – not thinking straight.

Mildred:  (with a soft smile says)  It will be better as time goes along.  (She continues) You know just this week I read a funny article and knew Robert would find it funny too.  I leaned over to read it to him and forgot that he was not there. (a soft smile on her face)

Me:  Mildred, how long has he been Home.

(Then the bombshell)

Mildred:  Oh, Dearie, it has been over 25 years but it seems like only yesterday to me.

I think if I could have fallen through the floor I would have.  To think I had to spend the rest of my life having him around, but not there.  I couldn’t imagine what life would be like, not being able to get away from him and not being able to touch him and talk to him. All these things wrapped up together as a part of my new unknown.

But, now………..I can.  I can understand.  I can sense what is going on inside of me just like Mildred talked about.

The tsunami has settled. Tears are different.  Times have past.  I have had to make things happen for myself.  Friends – true friends – came forward and stood with me all the way, never condemning what or how I did something, realizing that it would all pass in time.  But how long would “time” be.

I am able to go to the piano, sit down and play a prelude or a special number and go back to my seat and feel the love of my Lord around me, not the loss of Loren.  I look forward to things now that seldom entered my mind for such a long time. How did this happen! Namely because I moved in my heart and mind, through my inner “house”.  As I left each “room” of my life (house), I was able to close the door on that “room” and keep it in the warehouse filled with my memories.  Each “room” of my “house” is different and does not “drip” over into the next “room”. THAT is how, for me Loren is real and close by,  and yet he is with his Lord and I am alright.

I have moved and moved and moved.  All just trying to find my place to perch. Trying to find a place where I could feel safe and secure, alone in the world, and where I could and would be understood.  You make so many mistakes when your world is intact.  But when it isn’t,  you almost get lost in the shuffle of life. I have news for everyone — particularly you who are on this “journey” —-I made it through.

There is one more juncture that some may wonder about:  re-marriage.  Yes. I have had the opportunity.  There was no way I could do such a thing.  My wedding ring still circles my finger and I could never ever give my heart to another man, no matter “who” he might be.  Loren told me several times, “Darling, if you ever find some one you can have fellowship with, know that you will always have my blessing.”  That must have broken his heart to say.  I would always be comparing another’s work with his and there is not, never was, nor could ever be any one who could satisfy me as Loren did.  Never!!  My heart is safe.  I comfortably “like” who I am now – – where I am in life – – will do whatever the Lord presents to me in the future as He knows me best.

“The steps of a good woman are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in her way.  Though she fall, she shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholds her with His hand.” (Psa. 37:23, 24) NKJ

Yes.  Though she fall, she shall not be utterly cast down.  I found this out in an abundant fashion. Only the Lord could do for me what was done way back then.

On June 18th back in 2008, it was the last night that I lovingly put Loren to bed.  The next day,  June 19th, he began to turn his eyes toward his Lord and he never looked back. On June 20th, it seemed as though my heart was weepingly saying, “There he goes” and the Angels on heaven’s shore were shouting,  “HERE HE COMES !!!!!!!”

“I have been young, and now am old;  yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken……” (Psa. 37:25a).

“Oh, magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together.  I sought the Lord, and He heard me and delivered me from all my fears” (Psa. 34:3,4).

Always………In His Care.  Marge H.

(My next and final posting will be on 6/20/2017)

Moving on is sometimes ~~~~~

~~~~easier than one might think.  With my work for P2C now behind me and my blog “just about” behind me I am going to have more time to get into trouble. Buttt, having said that I have no intention of getting into trouble.

I have grown passed that stage and into the stage that my favorite author got into and I thought she was out of her mind.  There are times though when you get to the stage of life that that one special person got to and you “understand” exactly what they were thinking and writing.

I have so many studies that I have wanted to make through the years and thought someday I will do that – – well – – the “someday” is now here.

Also been bringing things up to date around here.  Got a new telephone directory and deleted a lot of names/numbers that I no longer care about in my directory. We really do let a lot of things simply “go” in life thinking we will tackle that later but the “later” never comes.  I have brought up all of my email addresses that I want to have and my computer has had a lot deletion going on these days.  I am so glad I can do this.  It is such a wonderful feeling cleaning things up and even getting them into a new setting.  What will really be great will be on July first I can delete Facebook and not have to see it on my screen any more.  Why wait until July first?  Because my Blog is “attached” to it and without it no one can automatically pull up Moments with Marge which will be available until July first.

The piano has arrived – I think I have told you that.  I have been working out a bit on it but it really is not too good.  It is scheduled to have its overhaul Thursday 6/22. So I have a lot of future piano work coming due as soon as the piano has been given a clean bill of health.

I have a new phase of piano work to do.  I did it for myself when I was a Dir., Music Ministries and now I can do it for another Worship Leader and help his Ensemble work better at rehearsals because of the recording that I will be doing for them.  Some of you remember those times ~~ I would tape your part 3x, then add another part with it 3x and then add the accompaniment 3x.  Amazing how you sounded at rehearsals.  I love doing it because as I work I can see how you produce as a result of my work.  I will do the recording and our Worship Leader will burn the CDs for the group.  Two peas in a pod working together to make pea plant super great!!!!!!!!!!! (Okay.  Maybe that is a bit extreme) lol

I do plan to do a special on Sundays whenever it is needed and continue to play at Woodmark Assisted Living on Sunday afternoons with Pastor Dan who brings a message, light in flavor but strong in the Word. There were 18 attending last Sunday. Sweet, sweet people.  All of them in their late chapter of life – all of them would have stories galore to tell.  All of the lives that we could race through so quickly in time would flood our hearts with tears and joy for each of them.

Last evening I looked out my door to see the big white van with no windows and watched as what once was a life was being gently put in the van.  I wondered.  What did that life hold?  Had they been happily married?  Did they have a family somewhere, saddened by their departure?  Were they a Christian?  If not……..my heart for a moment in time sunk because there would be no future moment in time when they just “might” accept the Lord as Savior.  With that thought, I closed the door and as I looked up I saw my beloved Loren with the portrait light beaming brightly on his quiet face. I “knew” where he was. How did I know that???  Actions speak louder than words. The results from his life showed it. I also “knew” where I would be going someday when the Heavenly Father decides it is my time.

In retirement alone, we had over 15 million minutes together.  Sound like a lot? NOPE!!!!!  Never did we have enough time together!!

Fellowship with the Lord is precious and seldom do we get below icing and into the cake so as to speak.  Time is so wonderful to know that you CAN choose what you do with it and make it count.

You and I have “this moment” in time…………………………………………………….and it is gone!!

You have 86,400 seconds in your day.  What are you doing with them!~!~!~!~!

In His Hands and On His Road.  Marge H.